So, lately I have been doing some work on myself. I mean-we are always works in progress but I have been working in some particularly deep issues that are super uncomfortable and kind of, well-yucky.
I will likely never be able to express how much my practice if voodoo has heloed and healed me in this lifetime.
And I tend to go all in-I wear stones associated with things I am working on, do energy work, reading, etc. And one thing I have noticed is that as I delve deeper into looking at things, I tend to want to work deeper into my voodoo practice and try different things and sometimes things that intimidate me a little or ALOT!!
It reminds me of being in certain Wicca circles that worked with darker or more intimidating deities as a 20 something. Sometimes I could not be very effective because, quite frankly, I was a little afraid.
But as I work on myself I notice that the energies I want or even need get deeper. I went from wearing rose quartz, to craving stones with a darker vibration, like apache tear, to rid myself and process through the dark, the onto golden healer as if to lift that vibration up. Until finally I crave the stones from the oldest, most ancient parts of the earth like smoky quartz from the himalayas.
I can only want these stones because I am ready for them. And being ready for them took some time and effort until I was ready. I HAVE TO BE READY.
And so it is, I see this sometimes with cases where an HD seems to be processing slowly, days and weeks may creep by. And it may be some things your HD needs to work through that is slowing up the work a bit.
But I think too we need to look inside and be sure we are ready as well! Maybe you are afraid to be happy because you grew up with parents who stayed unhappily married. Maybe you are afraid that your morning grumpiness, your habit of eating cookies in bed, or even that extra few quarantine pounds is gonna ruin the deal for you and your hd when you finally get together. And sometimes you have to work through an issue so it does not have the power to break you, or the relationship.
So I guess my moral, if I have one is-don't give up on your case just because it is running a little long or slow. Don't give up on your HD just because he or she needs to work through some tough issues in order to be with you. But most importantly, under any circumstances don't give up on yourself. Don't cheat yourself out of opportunities to become better, clearer, stronger and more the YOU that can only be revealed with time and effort. You are so deserving of it!
In service,
Khouzhan Morgan
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